Edit: I just realized I missed the other General forums and misread the discreption for this section........oops....
Note: This is rather lengthy. You have been warned!
Greetings <JO>,
I’m sure some of you remember me hanging out on your server from the past few evenings, but I am also aware that many of you are not aware of my having been making frequent visits to your server. I’ve been talking to Jorka quite a bit lately. I recently expressed many concerns and questions I had pertaining to The Jedi Order, and I must admit that he has provided me much of the friendly aid I was in need of. However, he suggested that I bring my questions and concerns to the <JO> as a whole so that I may see what you all think.
Let me first warn you before I begin that this is going to include a brief introduction to my previous clanning experience (for I believe that it would help you to understand where I’m coming from). I would like to apologize for anything I may say that may sound like I am bragging, am full of myself, or anything that is in the least bit negative, for it is not my intention to express the attitude of an elitist. That said, I shall now begin.
Having 11 years of online gaming experience (currently 20 years of age and a history/literature dual major), I have developed many opinions pertaining to clans. I have had my fair share of troubles, as well as many successes. I began my online gaming around the time of Diablo’s release in November of 1996. I continued to join groups until I left a group called Dominion [(*D*)] in the summer of 2000. At this point I created my first clan for the Dreamcast, and once Phantasy Star Online was released we quickly acquired a member count of between 13 and 18. However, this success was short lived. With the release of the new consoles, members dispersed and I was once again left without a clan.
I did not join another group until May of 2001, with the release of Jedi Outcast. Having had prior experience with clans, including several groups in Unreal Tournament, I knew how a FPS group should function. However, this new Star Wars game proved to be unique. It’s saber combat system was extremely addicting and challenging, and it also tended to add different ways one could run a clan. I joined a server titled “Jedi’s Home”, owned by a man going by the name of Jediael. I spent two weeks visiting Jediael often, and we quickly became good friends (yes, it is very possible in an online game). In November of 2001 we decided to make Jedi’s Home an official clan, and thus named it the Jedi of Light (JL).
Following principles of honor and respect, it made it difficult for many to be accepted into our group. For many it would take a few months before they’d ever be allowed to wear our tag. I invited a few of my close friends, among which was Shadow Stone and Elusive Sora. By the summer of 2002 I had obtained the rank of Jedi Knight, and by the winter of 2002 I had obtained the rank of Master. However, 2003 proved to be a troubling year. The now thriving clan suffered a terrible blow when our dear friend Jediael was shipped to the middle-east to aid in President Bush’s War on Terror. He quickly handed the reigns down to me (being the only other founder), and thus we would never see him again until 2005, and still even that last encounter would be brief.
Many questioned my abilities to lead a group, so I quickly formed a Jedi Council, stripping away the majority of my powers so that I had equals. This system proved to work. Unfortunately, though, members began to lose interest in the game, and by the end of the summer of 2003, the only members left standing were myself and Stone. However, with the release of JKA we managed to bring ourselves back to a member count of about 45 members by January of 2004. Though for many JKA proved to be the ‘Golden Years’ of JL, it proved to be the most difficult period of clanning I have ever experienced. Close friends proved to not be friends at all. Left and right I had people (whom I would now consider to be immature children who had too much time on their hands) attempting to “take over” JL, blaming many of their problems on the net on me, and ruining what friendships we had formed. Now, normally something like this would not have phased me in the least. But understand that these are people I had just spent years getting to know and growing close to, and in the end they cared nothing about me or anyone in the group. (Note that not everyone became corrupt or adapted the mindset of a conspiring child.)
I managed to end the conflicts that grew to plaque JL, but the damage had been dealt (on the surface anyway). We had gone from around 45 members to around 13. However, the 13 who remained were extremely tight, and even today we are still together. JL kept to itself in 2005 the beginning of 2006, and by the spring of 2006 it’s members had grown so close that we were already making plans to meet in person. We decided to move JL to a new community I was building, NeoCetra, so that we may keep in touch yet still move on to newer games. So in truth JL did not ‘die’, it just merged into the newer group, NC (which is not in JK).
Since JL moved to NC, I have been clanless in JKA, and have spent the past 9 months wandering the servers. I had not managed to find a group with a friendly atmosphere until I ran into Jorka on The Void. There I noticed his Anakin Solo signature and pm’d him on the forums, asking how he found a picture of Anakin Solo with his blade extended. He told me that he did not make the sig, but that Achilles, his Master, did, and recommended I track him down. Achilles was not on Xfire (and I could not find his true screen name it seems), so I used Google to find your website, and from there obtained the server address for <JO>. As I waited on your server, I quickly noticed how friendly everyone was. Not only were they friendly to their own peers, but also to the guests of their server. I soon lost interest in seeking Achilles out, and instead began to connect to the server after school and work to closely watch the group.
It has now come to the point that I am considering applying for a position in this friendly atmosphere called The Jedi Order. I must say that the vast majority of you have impressed me with your friendly attitudes towards others, and I feel welcome when I am on your server. So, I still have a few concerns I would like to bring to your attention.
Taking into account the experience I have with clanning, please understand that I have not actually joined a group in years. I have created groups for the past 6-7 years. I would be lying if I were to say I am a follower. Just a few days ago I attempted to join a clan in Phantasy Star Universe, and when I tried to help plan events or express concerns I had in a few areas (such as member activity), members quickly grew hostile and I thus left the group without a word.
That said, how well does this group treat the opinions and suggestions of others, regardless of their position in the group? I am the kind of person who, once I find a problem, I develop the urge to see that the problem is fixed. If not by me, than by someone (or a group of people) who can fix the problem. This means that if I were to see the clan were to be inactive, or better yet, the actual leadership (I’m aware this group is lead by a council) be inactive, I would bring to everyone’s attention and make suggestions and express my concerns in the hope that the problem(s) would be fixed and things would turn out for the better of the community.
Another concern of mine is the RPing aspects. I have no problem RPing, but I do have a problem with everything being an RP. You see, I’ve noticed people addressing padawans as just that, padawans, and masters as though they were ‘superior’. Where I do understand that this may be an aspect of the actual RP aspect of this group, understand that my real views towards life might slip into the way I talk, and I would end up calling everyone as whatever their name is on the game, minus their actual title. I view everyone as though they were on the same field as I am when speaking to them, and as such I have a problem with acting as though I am inferior to anyone (and I also have a problem with treating others as inferior).
Much to my dismay, it appears as though I will have to use the pint-sized youngling model. Where I understand this adds to the RP aspect of things, it vexes me because I enjoy the EU of Luke’s era more so than the prequel era. In the EU, someone could study as an adult and still become a Jedi (meaning I wouldn’t have to use a child for a model). And of course, Mars’s youngling models represent the 4-6 year old younglings, not the younglings who would be older. So it puzzles my why you would use those youngling models, and not simply just making a model like Anakin Skywalker (the episode 2 one) very short. Those helmets creap me out!
But do not worry, this is just a personal dislike of mine and will not interfere all that much with my actual application. Just wanted to get that off of my chest. :p
I do sincerely hope this group does not have a problem with someone being worse or better than they are at dueling/ffaing/etc. A few groups I was investigating grew extremely angry with how I was better than them at dueling, and thus would not let me join, saying that it doesn’t make sense for a padawan to be more skilled than the members of the council. I am sorry that I already have 5 years experience in this series. I do not intend on hiding my true abilities. And I do apologize if that made me sound cocky. Again, it is not my intention. I am just trying to be honest.
So, with that, I would like to know. What are your thoughts, and would this possibly be a group I would be welcome to join? Would this group be right for someone like me, or should I continue searching or simply consider starting another group or uninstalling the game all together?
Thank you in advance, and I look forward to seeing your responses and playing with you on the server!
Sincerely,
Ralin Alastair
NOTE: I see that this might have made me sound like I take the net too seriously. I just consider it a hobby of mine. My writing tends to be like this when I am trying to be formal, so sorry about that. I do have a personal life, so please do not think of me as an obsessed clanner
